November 22, 2010
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My first departmental graduate seminar is this Thursday. This Proposal Seminar is the first major component of my PhD requirements, so not insignificant.
I am Powerpoint Queen Of The Universe. I can bullet-point and custom-animate (tactful, meaningful animations, mind), and format the hell out of an oral presentation. I can stand in front of an audience of hundreds and confidently deliver a great talk, supported by great slides. But I have been working on this thing for a few weeks now, and it’s still kicking my butt all day long. Crippling performance anxiety brought on by the thought of all the too-brilliant professors who will be posing super-nasty-hard questions at the end of the presentation has led me to second-guess major chunks of my literature review and research questions, and to go wading back into the quagmire of references I have tucked away over the past year. This Geek is ready to *facedesk*
Maybe I’ll just try to dazzle them with all my pretty pictures from this summer in Kugluktuk.
Me: “Are there any questions?”
Too-Smart-Prof: “Ms. Geek, can you please justify your use of….”
TSP: “Ooooh! Pretty beetle!”
Me: “I’m sorry, could you repeat the question?”